Re: Worm zapper
A Mother's Letter<br />...In Remembrance<br /><br /><br />In memory of my Son, Jacob Nathaniel Hill <br />Born September 12, 1999<br />Died July 21, 2005 <br /><br /> How Do You Handle the Death of a Child? <br /><br />I recently lost my 5 year old son, Jacob, on July 21, 2005. He was electrocuted by a worm shocker. Jacob you see was an avid fisherman, every chance he could have, he'd have us fishing. <br /><br />I'm not sure how a parent is supposed to handle the death of their child. For me, I feel like I've died right along with him. The pain is at times so unbearable. The emptiness I feel inside seems to be eating away my own existence. It hurts to see how people and the world around you can go about their everyday life without him, as if though he never existed. <br /><br />They say that as days go by it gets easier, this I don't understand. Everyday that has gone by for me just reminds me another day I never got to share with him, and how many more I never will. You see, me and Jacob were very close, it's like we shared the very same spirit. I do have three other beautiful children, who I am also close to, but Jacob and I were one. The day he was born and I looked down at him, I knew God made him just for me. I knew then there would be a closeness no one in this world could break. <br /><br />But I was so very wrong. Jacob was taken from this world away from me too early for a reason I will never know or come to understand. Five years is too short. This was the time Jacob was finding himself, his own personality, his own dreams. He was to conquer the world and to love me and to make me proud, as he would say. I often ask myself how God could take this from him and me. He had so much to live for and to become. My heart was filled with fulfillment, love, pride...and now it's been filled with pain, anger, and tears. <br /><br />So I ask again, how is a parent to handle the death of their child? <br /><br />Mayce Hill