JasonJ
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- Aug 20, 2001
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I like to believe that I do not suffer from poor decision making prompted by hairtrigger impulses, but I think my post yesterday is evidence that even I am less than perfect, even hypocritical on occasion. I regret that. After my post yesterday I went for a nice 2.5 mile run. That is how I deal with things. I dealt with my divorce and other not so great events in my life with excercise, now is no different. I was able to reflect while running. I tend to solve a lot of problems when causing myself pain and suffering, don't know why.<br /><br />I realized that there was no true reason for me to feel the way I did. I myself was not attacked. In fact, I usually rarely even get negative postings aimed at me. I am disagreed with, but that is not the same, that is normal and to be expected. I had no problem with Souls link, I had a huge problem with therivers response and Souls subsequent response. I guess, even though I am not religious, I hold those who are religious to their standards, and I went off on Soul because I felt like the christian thing to do would have been to just ignore therivers post entirely. Water off of a ducks back. No one is perfect, I need to always remember that, so I appologize to Soulwinner, he didn't deserve the flaming I gave him.<br /><br />I really honestly tried to stay away, but I have checked iboats almost every day since I first came here, even if I don't always post. Those who have tried to quit smoking can relate. I don't want to see DC converted to a forum where no one can say anything because someone else won't like it. If I don't want to read about it, then I shouldn't read it. I can't help it though, because I want to understand everyones viewpoint. That is the only way I can maintain what I like to believe is an open mind. I have to read the religion posts, the political posts, whatever, because it teaches me things about subjects I don't agree with or believe in. I don't feel I have the right to knock something if I don't know anything about it. What I need to do a better job with is to just ignore those who are not contributing in a productive manner, and respond to those who are productive.<br /><br />I am not saying I will be seen here a lot, but I am saying that I am stepping way back and just cruising for awhile, lurking in the background and seeing how things go. I start my police academy training on Jan 4th, so that will greatly reduce my cabin fever. I have been doing police stuff, training, dealing with dirtbags, ride alongs and stuff, and it has been very interesting so far. I have dealt with meth busts, seizures, that dead missing guy, all sorts of things. <br /><br />This is all pre fun though. After academy ends in late March, then its more training. This is all in addition to my regular job which will pick back up in February. The hope is to do the part time cop gig, full time bug killing gig until I get on full time at the PD, which should be sometime in 05. Anyway, I am sorry I was a dumb arse, I know better, it won't happen again unless it happens again....
<br />And you just keep calling them like you see them.<br />You are amoung friends here with very few exceptions.<br /><br />My wife calls my bad days "MPMS" lol
